Oh wellington!

Horse riding is what I really want to try T.T

Too bad the chance never come rolling over.

And I didn’t get to see THE sheep which symbolizes NZ or milk a cow because cow milking is solely dependent on machines in the 21st century.

[In case you're wondering what is wrong with the photo above, there was a water droplet on my lens which I failed to notice. And elephant FML]

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This is not my cutest week wtf. But I still LOVE my boots :)~~~~~

And I bought a pink earphone T..T just to match my lousy mp3 player which never functions well.

Bad hair because I never learned from mistake. Every time I use a different shampoo, my hair goes bloody frizzy.

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Last day in Wellington. Am heading to Auckland (12-hour bus ride Gah!) tomorrow and catch my flight on 11th Feb.

You can catch up with me anytime from 12th Feb till 26th Feb :)  Heehee..

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I’m broke T_T  Came back with an empty wallet yesterday. I MEAN IT!!!

Bought a birthday present for my sis (AHHHH.. I’m so loving) and some presents for the people who have been taking care of me, offering me a place to sleep and driving me around.

Spent every penny of the NZD I brought along with me. Except the 200$ earned from working part time in a food restaurant. Half of the expense on transport. T_____T

My advice? Credit card is a must and plan your trip well.

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P/s: The area of my face just reminded me that I need to massage my face frequently =.=

Gisborne

The first of many encounters.

First farm. First time taking a 9-hour bus ride and suffering from REALLY agonizing car sick.

Holy cow! I was almost clutching the toilet bowl upon reaching to prepare myself for a graceful vomiting. T_T

Angela, my host greeted me and I didn’t notice the hawt guy behind her until a few days later. Well, she is definitely different from what I’d been imagining.

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The house and surrounding area.

Looks good but I can assure you, it doesn’t feel good -..-

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The three-legged cat which jumped onto my bed at 3am T_T

Tried shoo-ing her away but she didn’t move an inch, despite me yelling / begging / threatening.

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This is the river where we swam FML

me? ME?! Swimming in a river? HAHA funniest shit ever -.-

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Farm bike. Brandon hot guy driving, Paul sitting in front, me and Angela sitting by each side.

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You must believe me. When I comment that someone is hot, he must be sizzling hot!

He’s hot because he’s not skinny but muscular with real six pack @_@

I didn’t swim at the first invite but fell into their trick at the second.

T______T I thought I was gonna die because I couldn’t reach the shore FML and I swear upon my tail that I will never ever swim in a river anymore. The ground is muddy and when you apply pressure on it, it feels different from concrete floor T_T haih wtf

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Her daughter, gawd-i-forgot-the-name -___-

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Every morning began with a crispy voice of Ange calling out ‘Breakfast’s ready’ and the wwoofers would be served with porridge. Mind you! In nz, porridge = oat OAT fml I HATE HEALTHY STUFF LIDDAT!

Lunch is always bread/sandwich. Baked beans on toast is my favourite ~^^~

Dinner was served in huge portion. Mashed potatoes + gravy, mutton/fish/roast chicken sometimes.

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The perfect plum ~^^~

What I like the most : Picking and eating fruits from the tree and devour without any limitation :)~

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Starry starry night. Not in this photo because my camera is too lousy to function excellently at night.

In my memory ~^^~ 20 years on earth and boy, that was the first time gazing into the space and a sea of twinkling stars fell into my cornea wtf.

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Hot guy slept outdoor. That’s why he’s hot mu-aha-aha.

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Pursie the dog. There’s another cat, Indira damn no photo :{

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The first wwoofing experience. And possibly the best?

Auckland

^^ Done wwoofing in all the five farms and now I shall rest my big fat bum in total princessy manner MUAHAHAHA ^^

4 nights to spend in Wellington. A slow and painful process to wish everyone goodbye.

Saved the previous post as draft. Decided to blog chronologically. ^^

Only YOU and YOU over there can enjoy the privilege of viewing my excellent photography (puih-.-)

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Took MAS from Penang-KL-Auckland on 31st December night and reach Auckland international on the next day.

Dammit. I don’t have the time and correct software to perfectisize all these photos so don’t criticize, ay?

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I hate myself too -..- Jijik, don’t cringe!

Quite like this photo actually ^^  despite the fact that half of it is covered in darkness.

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Cukup hiao bo? ROLF

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Wandered around the city. Checked into backpacker and bumped into people.

Headed to Gisborne the next day.

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Putting myself into your shoes, I think I’ll be disappointed at the length of this post.

Meh~~

Yes, I’m disappointed -..-

Deleted quite a bunch of photos at desperate hour.

:)~

I have plenty of things to complain, but imma keep them to myself.

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Things I’d like to try :

(Resolutions are useless, as I’ve heard. Just make a list and things can stay there for as long as they like)

* Surfing / Body surfing – this is just bloody cool ^.^

* Getting a tattoo – I know my parents will kill me but I can resist everything except temptation. Poo~~

* Healthy life – no more excuse for not exercising

* Sailing – woohoo~! Cool! Cool!

* Get another piercing

* Open up ^_^ there are people out there wanting to know me, but I’m not giving them any chance. Hmm.. I think that stalking orlang just deleted me off FB huahahaha..

* Give dancing class a try. Don’t vomit! I quite like the idea of dancing because dancing girls are hot! Will try ajak omma go club ^.^ Phew.. Her dirty dancing skill :)~

* Take a yoga class. Fuck my uni with all those stupid regulation. You just don’t understand how upset I was during the second semester.

* Read a book every month hahaha because I know I can’t make it once a week when I go back to uni life. Like right now when I have nothing to do at all, I read every single day =_= Now : the rise and fall of adolf hitler. Ah.. Quite interesting, actually.

* Overcome internet addiction. I mean it!

* Be genuinely happy  :)~  I’d like to provide happiness if I could then I would. Mehh~

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Okay. Babbai :)~

Have a good day :)~

Heartache

Painful, for what I see. And what I feel.

This old man. I so want to love him like a child.

A victim to God, I think. Why oh why, all this pain?

His condition is not gonna improve.

I’m not in a position to feel sorry for him, or for them.

But this pang of sadness attacks me, every single time I see him struggling in his wheelchair.

Something happened to his brain and he lost the ability to control the muscle on his legs and thus be confined to a wheelchair.

Life is so fragile. You’ve heard about it. You’ve seen about it.

Yesterday, he told me, “We’re happy to have you here.”

Aww…. I’m happy being here. Almost paradise.

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You know what. This might happen to anyone around you :(

I don’t like this!..

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Life oh life. You’re just so funnyy :~

Kia ora?

Internet is bloody expensive :(

8.34am here in Napier. Gonna catch a bus down to Wellington at 9.30am.

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I think this is Art deco wtf.  It’s kinda boring after 5pm. All the shops will be closed :( how to shop?!

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2nd farm in nuhaka. My caravan!! Well, part of mine since I was sharing with another girl from Switzerland.

Till then. Tata  :)~

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P/s: Ah may! Jangan menghilangkan diri!!

P/P/s: Okay I’m sitting in front of computer again because I needa email my host and tell them about delaying my visit.

P/P/P/s: Not a good sign when someone is treating you extremely nice T_T and you’re just a babi vulnerable girl on your own FML. Strip show, anyone? Bah. I don’t resist but I’m not exactly happy :S

P/P/P/P/s: Don’t look at me like that -..- I don’t ask money from daddy okay?! I worked for something I aimed for. Tha flight ticket is on dad because he offered kindly as a birthday present. I didn’t request for it in the first place. I just asked for their permission if I can fly here. If I had known about the existance of a cheaper flight, I could have afford everything on my own.

Kthxbai

Warning : Academic related. Skip this post to avoid unnecessary emotional outburst and inappropriate four-letter word.

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Just sent a letter full of grudge to one of the professors wa bu shuang WTF

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Now I feel retarded. Fcuk this shit. My head is only full of vulgarities.

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It doesn’t matter anymore if he gives me a B or C. It doesn’t fcuking matter anymore.

Now I remember why the heck did I book a flight to nz desperately.

Because I need a getaway.

Away from anything which makes me sick and very tired of life.

Away from things which encourage me to seek suicide but fuck. I’m not gonna kill myself because of this stupid studying.

Imma scribble fuck fuck fuck three times. Just three times. Make this bad ass go away. Far far away.

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Didn’t expect a warning letter so fast. Ass.

Stupid university. Make my life difficult like shit.

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Allow me to type the longest

haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

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On a positive note

Okay la. I didn’t get a C for chemistry. ^_^ Hooray wtf. I hated that class so damn much.

I get a C0 for physics. 2 grades up. Real hooray wtf. I did send a grudge letter to this professor haha wtf why am I always writing grudge letter -_- because I thought he was going to fail me like the first semester(another professor). Boo. ^_^ Sayang this professor ^^

Next year no English. How? T_T No more A to pull up my ass grade.

Christianity is a total disappointment. I want to hate that professor right now so that I can learn to accept and love him in future.

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Arrrrrrr…….  I cannot change my babi major. If only I can skip the process of studying, fast forward to 2012, YAY! I’m a graduate.

I want to marry and be a full-time wife and mother :D Yippee. Working at home sounds cool :D if only my husband wants me to work hehehe..

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Lalalalala~  Way too emotional. Cannot sleep peacefully.

I’m a retard!

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Will pack on the last day, which is today wtf.

Off to a wedding on 31st morning and will be flying on air for 10 hours. YAY!

How come people dunno I’m going nz one? -_______-”" bo lat explain tsk tsk tsk.

Nah. This is my details :

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WHAT  :   WWOOF in New Zealand

WHERE  :  North Island (first three weeks) ; South Island (second three weeks)

WHEN  :  1 JAN 2010 – 11 FEB 2010

WHY  :  Low budget traveling

WHO  :  Me alone (yeah, wtf)    < There is no problem with people who choose to travel alone okay =.=”

HOW  :  Work for 4-6 hours in organic farm in exchange for food and accommodation.

REASONS  :

1) Bought a book in Taiwan which triggered my interest in this type of traveling.

2) Trip in Taiwan was a little too luxurious for people like me. No one is taking charge at all in making plans except my sista. So not memorable at all when I was asked how did I spend my holiday, I could actually forget to mention taipei FML max.

3) Dislike the idea of spending 2 months doing nothing practically. Planning early is a must.

4) Want to go somewhere beautiful :)  Want to learn something extraordinary :)

5) I didn’t intend to go alone in the first place. Hinted to a friend but he didn’t know FML max. Left a comment to another wwoofer who will be traveling at the same time, but apparently comment box is not happening at all so I think she didn’t know about my comment wtf.

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To self, GOOD LUCK AND HAVE FUN :)

Ahhh… Happy holidays ^^

I know imma enjoy mine ^^

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P/S : Probably the last post for a very, very long time :)~~~

P/P/S : Wanna go japan in winter 2010 can onot  CAN ONOT?! 有目标才能死命存钱 ^.^

Gotta study during summer break. Papa mama, don’t come! Lol. They never found out about this blog yet. HEH~

Babai ^.^v

Rah-rah

Rah-rah-ah-ah-ah-ah

Ruhma-ruhma-ma-maa

Ga-ga-oo-la-la

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Meh~ You should listen to lady gaga if you dunno what I’m talking about.

I WORSHIP LADY GAGA!! ^^

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Babi pathetic. This year it snows heavily!!

I have never seen heavy snow ever, ever in ma life! Exactly after I left Seoul, it snows bloody heavily T.T

Wuwuwuwuwu~ I deserve a white christmas! T____T

Definitely going to ski or/and snowboard in 2010. ^^

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Zazazaza.. Straightened my hair ^^

Received tonnes of compliments. I quite like it when people tell me how much I look like korean ^^

I think I learned something -_-  Alor star is a small pond for a big fish like me haha wtf T_T

Things changed unexpectedly. I almost forgot all the food I’ve been dying for 3 weeks before my flight.

Tomyam doesn’t taste as great as I had expected. Same goes to laksa, claypot noodle etc.

I was too occupied with cooling myself down and tolerating with the speed of internet  -..-

It takes a year to load one holy page -_____-

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Being home is good ^^

Wanna spank all the small asses out there who think naively that elsewhere is better than home.

You’re so so so so wrong but who am I to preach you? Leave home and guling for a few years and hopefully by then you will learn what is really important in your life.

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Being home is good ^^

Even though I’m being pressured to sleep before 1am and wake up early (which is totally different from my previous biological clock -_- sleep at 5am and wake up at  2pm rolf ), I quite like living like a normal twenty-year-old :)

Even though the parents drag me to their royal club -__- almost everyday, it is good to get some real exercise :)

Even though I’m being fed like nobody’s business, I know how much I will yearn for a particular food when I’m not here :)

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Being home is good ^^

Listening to little brother arguing with mama for over trivial matters

Listening to mama retelling the same story for the n-th times

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Being home is good ^^

I have a car ^^ a huge refrigerator^^ a room for myself^^ a TV!!^^ kitchen!^^ living room^^ bathroom with doors^^

Ha ha ha..  Almost everything is good ^^

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2009 is really coming to an end. A toast to my deteriorating english. Damn.

It has been quite a sad year for me. Struggling constantly to meet my own expectations, and not to let others down.

I know I did disappoint a few people who held high expectation of me. T_T

Like a butterfly with a pair of poorly abused antenna, I lost myself in the last battle.

I accept myself. This is a path one must walk through.

Maybe it was a sign T_T  Telling me not to push too hard.

Had the worst period cramp ever before sitting for physics and calculus the next day.

I dunno. I kinda let go. Fuck all these exams. I almost died from the pain. Maybe it was a sign afterall.

I have not sinned, but maybe a little self-centered in some point. Mostly towards people who provoke the tulan-ness in me.

Emo fag (ain’t a polite term but this is what I call them) stop being so emo. Why don’t you try to think positively?

Makes me tulan reading that kind of text. Wanna kick them until they puke. Karate whooosh.. whassshh..

Bahaha..

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2010 resolutions? I should at least take the effort to make one. Small steps towards self improvement. ^^

1) Be kind to everyone. No more prejudice towards guards. He might look very much like a pervert but it is not polite to judge one by his appearance, okay? ^^ Try to small talk with ahjumma^^ Be sweet^^

2) Learn to offer. It doen’t embarass me at all to offer something sincerely^^ I do not want something from you, but I intend to share good things of mine with you ^^ Waa.. Good good!

3) Be ^^ anytime, anywhere. Hee.. I’m already very ^^ Look at this post with thousand of splendid ^^ (can be read as hihi or heehee)

4) Stop being so lazy. Smack smack spank spank. I’m the laziest on earth! Gah. How? Find a goal and work for it. Maybe I would be less lazy. ^^

5) Kao all my TA. I care less if they are busy with their work but no one would feel sorry for myself, except me of course! if I don’t do well in my study because they are created to help students with problems and I am one of those with thousand of splendid problems. Damn.

6) Find a cool part time. I wanna work in a coffee shop! COFFEE SHOP!!!!~  or an Italian restaurant ^^ Romantic ㅋㅋ

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That’s all for today ^^

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P/s: Who sms to my malaysian phone in a cheesy way. Faster confess!

Guess

Who is balding due to excessive hair pulling during exam period?

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Who is gonna walk around with an inch of ugly black roots for the next two months. Urgh..

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Who didn’t sleep at all so that she doesn’t miss her flight the next morning?

And slept like a bloody fat pig on plane exactly after lunch, next to a korean dad who insists on introducing his son to her =.=

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She had a long time contemplating whether should she talk to him first. Heh.

After talking to air stewardess, he found out that she’s not a korean but she had korean writing on her left hand (memo, as usual) and initiated a friendly conversation out of curiosity.

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Thanks to the wonderful peeps who kept her in their house when she was homeless.

She was given the luxury to sleep on bed. Heh.

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Who is back? After 22 months?

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Lame lame. Me lah! ME!

Quite bored at home =S

11.5% of motivation to study calculus is burning weakly, very weakly.

Gah.. Nothing much changed at home. My brother looks uglier than before -_-

I’m evil heh :P

Dad quit his position as a secretary to some squash association and began learning golf -_-

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Can’t believe it. I’m missing seoul already T_T

Stupid weather. Stupid time difference (one hour nia but everything feels completely different)

Winter is good. Imma learn how to love winter! ^^  okaylah. I really miss the coldness =_=

Cannot go out to 매점 and get a banana/strawberry milk anytime. Dunno where to go. Dunno what to do. Haighzzz..

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That’s why we have something we call mother who wakes you up at 8am and drags you out for breakfast and shops for CNY clothes.

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Yo. I like what I see ^^

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Blue colour I likey. ^^ Damn I’m so urban -_-

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Slutty black dress. I likey ^^ It’s a gift hehehehe..

Too slutty, cannot wear in front of family, but I have occasions in mind ^^

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Zazazaza.. I quite like alor star.

Back in seoul, everything seems to originate from one and only fashion pot, no variety at all and the price seems to be unreasonable.

Fashion from taiwan, china, japan. YAY ^^

PED

Sigh,,,,,,,

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I’m suffering from post exam depression fml.

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Will reach penang airport by 6.55pm on christmas eve. Bah.

A wedding awaits me on the christmas day itself.

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Went to namdaemun to shop for something. Ended up buying nothing except a few jeju chocolates and some keychains.

Make my life easier. Just tell me what you want. Heh. I’m still feeling generous!

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I have every reason to be depressed right now T_T

Time to pack and move again. Time to clean the mess. Time to face the old wounds. Time to retrieve what you have abandoned.

That is so me. I feel so messy!

Make a bond and break a bond, later.

So, so me.

Asking me how am I and expect me to describe in a few sentences is not possible.

So many things happened.

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okay. imma pangsai and bath and clean my room and off to a bookstore. 培养气质 ^.^

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P/s: Ask me out! :D

For some chilling session. Oh wait. I don’t chill. I lepak. :S

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P/P/s: This is my seng fuk san ga :’(

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I know I would have been so damn rich if I didn’t buy that dslr / lens / laser printer / babi expensive catridge / perfume / taiwan trip etc etc

But everything is well spent ^_^

I’m happy with my life.

I’m grateful for my part time which is able to cover up my social fees. You think party no needa pay meh?

I could have been a millionaire, but I choose another way to spend it.

Ahh~ My 1,000,000 won.. My one hundred keping.. My seratus keping..

T_T My money wuwuwuwuwu.. My money..

My account is one step closer to zero. Back to sqaure one, is this what they call?

Damn miraculous I actually could make it when I was quite convinced that I couldn’t make it due to financial constraint.

Must thank my supporter ^_^  They are giving me an opportunity which they themselves could never had the luxury to dream upon.

My dad is cool. For my birthday, I always get something I wanted from the deepest of my heart ^_^ Last birthday a 33% sponsored DSLR. This birthday a fully sponsored flight.

미안. I underestimated the budget. I thought I could have make everything under 6k rm but that babi flight already costs 5k (Prolly due to my procrastination. It was 4k a week before my booking). For the future 1.5 months, I’m hoping to keep it down to 3k.

When I went to Taiwan, my account almost went from 50 keping to zero! ZERO! Damn takde duit pun nak pegi travel sumore bla bla bla. Taiwan trip costs less than 50 keping I’m pretty sure hehe.. because sista was rm200 poorer after my visit. HAHAHAHAH not my business. She pandai-pandai paid for everything first.

Sigh. I’m still a good girl right? I’m trying not to spend like water because mom still consider a can of 3rm tuna expensive.

I’m controlling all my shopping lust due to the bigger picture.

I don’t wanna ask for money, because I have never done so :(((

Dad usually gives without asking. And he’s gonna make me exercise like shit when I go back :((

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Remember the three stages of life? Young with energy but no money.

People don’t believe me when I claimed that money just came in when I need them.

Sometimes I spent like ALL my allowance okay. Don’t even remember how the hell did I spend.

It’s okay. I have money I want to spend hehehe..

Not every millionaire is happy! I’m contented being a millionaire in won. Heh.

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Europe trip? Thou seem so so so far away from me :(

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P/P/P/s: I R-E-A-D  a  B–O–O–K TODAY!!!!!~~

Technically yesterday since it is 5.30 am right now and I’m not sleepy at all fml.

Dead Poet’s Society, worth reading ^^ though I’m looking for something like my sister’s keeper. How powerful can words be? A fool like me cried like a heartbroken whale.

But I went to noraebang with a friend. Ate fries. Drank cocktail. Drank beer. Turned into a second hand smoker. 1 minute late for curfew. ah fml. Not worth bragging. A korean I quite like. Makes me laugh all the time. He asked if he could ring me after being enrolled into military. Sigh.. I dunno. I (quite) don’t like taking phone calls especially if awkward silence is highly expected.

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Wish me a safe trip. I wanna come back alive. Gegegege.. *trembling fear*

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Good night, little lambs.